Growth first begins to appear as a change that brings more various and delicate colors and scents of life. The events that are encountered for the first time in life can be baffling at first, but fortunately these new experiences that we think we failed to make the best out of teach us new senses of a different world. The paradox that when we thought we have stepped back, we have actually taken two steps forward, always comes to realization belated, and the fact that we realize this progress belated alone is also a paradox. At the phase of my life when I was 26 turning 27, I experienced a great leap that almost felt imposing. It was not an easy year. After the year went by, at the end of enduring the great and unexpected changes in life, I slowly began to realize that I found more colors and scents of life that I can sense and appreciate.
On one of the deep autumn days, I became at awe of the color of the sky and went for a stroll in the Geun-lin Park near my studio. The outdoor gym of Geun-lin Park was high with spirit. People in different outfits and of various looks were excersising very hard. The People freely portrayed their emotions as they excersised, which got me pondering about different paths in life. And the various auras I’ve found in each person gave me a colorful festive experience along with the fresh air, blue sky and the beautiful colors of autumn leaves. This splendid image marked the beginning of Faux-Naif (Feign) Olympics series.
Exercise brings out the colors of life that we have overlooked or ignored and displays them in front of our eyes. The exercises that are similar to familiar games we often play can let us pour out small pieces of the wonderful emotions we hold inside such as passion, tenacity, joy, fury and despair. This can be compared to prism, which displays diffusion of various colors that exists in white light. The Olympic symbol that represent the world also reflect various colors of life. Olympics represent variety of life. Faux-Naif (Feign) Olympics surpasses the festival of sport and present a festivity of various colors and scents revealed by sports.
The awareness of the tension between self and the surrounding world and the search for the true self that have been carried out can still be found in Faux-Naif (Feign) Olympics. A tug of war game between the world and myself is still ongoing. Amid the tension that occasionally grows loose or tense, I tried to hold my ground and confront the world with all my might. I could get hurt from time to time, but I pulled myself back up everytime and continued the journey of life. And I believe that granted another step forward. Raising the red card up high towards the suppressing forces in life is a manifestation of independence, and the girl shouting out ‘victory is mine!’ is a portrait of stronger self. My work can be described as a diaky that record many emotions that filled myself throughout the past year. The emotions approached as complex layers of fear and anxiety toward life and unexpected joy and happiness in between, which I captured onto a dense and colorful surface, and now I confess with the metaphor of Faux-Naif (Feign).
Creating artwork and writing notes help me reflect on myself and clarify what has been obscure. My past year has been fierce, and in the process, I found my thoughts and beliefs growing stronger. Though I am still trying to stay balanced, I feel progress. I hereby present you the result of my intense struggle for growth from the past year, Faux-Naif (Feign) Olympics.
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